all my life i've wanted to be the girl that rockers write songs about. someone's muse. a girl from 'crazy' (aerosmith) or 'she talks to angels' or 'jaded' (aerosmith again). but lets face it, im just a conformist. you can't get any more common than me. just another rafflesian, another reject, another girl on the street. truth be told, i always thought i was different, i had character. i wasn't like everyone else. but i've finally learnt i am just like everyone else. and it took me a whole 18 years to learn that.

sometimes i think a simple life is great. no worries, no emotions, nothing. when i'm with mx i do feel that way. but its nv enough. maybe its nv enough for me to just stay in one place. or just be normal, be safe. maybe thats why my relationships are so destructive, or why to me the grass is always greener on the other side. but it nv is. it nv ever is. you, for one will know what i mean. i always knew i needed a rock. someone who'll wait for me to come back. to see everythign i need to see, do everything i need to to get it out of my system. and still take me back. one day i swear, one day. my real life is sitting somewhere in my soul waiting to start ): meanwhile i'm glad i've got my rock with me (: