dont think ive ever been so disillusioned with everything i have .
and i really have no idea if it is a matter of luck or more like hardwork .
sometimes you really feel like you've tried so hard but it just always falls short .
& ppl around you just expect you to pick up the pieces of your life that they have smashed anyway .
& while you're trying to just maintain everything they are just nonchalant and demanding anyway so forget it i'm giving up everything ok im throwing everythign back in .
everythings going wrong i dont know where to begin .

maybe its not just their expectations but mine i cant live up to anyway

wishes to fishes wishes to fishes wishes to fishes

silence is easy it just becomes me